i have chronic responsibility.

grade twelve is ridiculous. this week brings two shows of scrooge,leadership field trips (bowling/skating anyone?) choir concert, rehearsals, aeagle shifts of death, and pirates of penzance! (woo).
being so busy is taking its toll on my sanity but i wouldnt have it any other way.
I came home this evening and we had our christmas tree.it is really grand,and i cannot stress enough,it really is. I have high standards for christmas trees.
Today on the drive to bowlarama in robertsons car, we were listening to a cd of Missy Higgins, and i enjoyed it immensely. i downloaded every song available, and i reccommend they weren't there, the sound of white, don't ever, and the special two.
im off to set my hair in hot rollers. early morning show at basinview tomorrow morning. should be interesting.

You sighed and I was lost in you, weeks could've past for all I knew.

havent updated in a bit, thought id do a quick little one.
donated blood today, now im feeling a-ok. i had a small dizzy spell, and thought it hurt a little bit, but overall it was a definite positive experience and a great day. ill definitely do it again in march, and unless you have some sort of terrifying reaction to needles and/or blood (etomie, jsnow), i urge you to do it too.

last night i planned to go to my usual cardio-step class, turns out that time slot was switched to cardio stip, which i was unaware of until i was in the class shaking my bum to pussycat dolls. at first i was slightly weirded out, but after a while i was having a lot of fun and had an excellent workout. im actually quite sore today.

tomorrow brings kickboxing, aeagle, and party. should be fun.

bitter-me'shell ndegeocello
neon-john mayer
accidental babies-damien rice
still-jodi manross
paperweight-schuyler fisk & joshua radin
never knew-the rocket summer
(thanks ren)set fire to the third bar-snow patrol
on your porch-the format

"i wanted to thank you, so i made you peach torte"
http://youtube.com/watch?v=QVE2_m1ehR4
atta girl taylor.

"Whom do you realize has been toxic to your heart and drop with surprising ease?"
-http://www.johnmayer.com/blog

fuck it all.
if i could graduate tomorrow, i would.
i need to be away from here.. away from this.

this week, summarized: grad pictures, musical audition, remembrance day ceremony stuff, intramurals, family portrait, fashion show up the ying yang, dodgeball sign ups, cheerleading children's sleepover, and a leadership test? (killed the 11 w's of project planning. woo). regardless of the mayhem, it is all going swimmingly, and i cant wait for whats yet to come. these next weeks promise to be just as hectic as the past few. this week, dance-midsummer-choir. sweeet.

speaking of this sleepover. I was at work from 630 pm yesterday all the way through to 830pm today. 21 hours of work, 5 hours of sleep. sleep spent on the ground of a gymnasium floor. in spite of all of this i did have fun at the little ones sleepover. i no longer want to have children, but fun was had nonetheless. got to spend some quality bonding time with the wolvies and even had chuls doing ballet...hilarious. went directly to work from the sleepover, then worked until 8. im just a wee bit tired. tomorrow brings more cheerleading, fshow pracky, then finishing up the sewing on my 'hood'. halloween dance shall be spectacular.

on my break today i bought knee socks for the costume, the most recent gossip girl, and a tiara. needless to say, i was very content with my purchases.
i could have sworn i saw snoop dogg today in the food court.
that is all. goodnight.

listen up- the gossip
sidewalks- story of the year
flake- jack johnson & ben harper
tim mcgraw- taylor swift
easy silence- dixies
the river is wild- the killers
whatever happened- the strokes

my family must think I've gone mad, sitting up in my room talking to myself in a cockney-English accent, saying things such as, "Now 'Arry, thats not very nice, is it?" I will be playing Snout and Mrs. Crachit. Two roles I did not want. Oh well, I'm not upset about it, no one seemed to get what they wanted or expected. The character descriptions and lines explained that Snout is a shy little tinker man, while Mrs Crachit is a Mrs-Weasley style of a woman,described as "a well-padded, motherly woman"...thanks domp. I wish I could at least be a cute little sparkly fairyyy. even moth or cobweb would do.

Recently, I have become addicted to 'so you think you can dance'. I rarely (if ever) watch television, however, since I've begun watching reruns on much this weekend, I cannot stop. Its the same familiar feeling I felt way back when I was in third grade and in love with Hanson. I feel as though I know them, and that maybe we could all be best friends if we only could have the chance to meet. The worst part is, I can watch the same episode numerous times, until I know what the host is about to say before she says it. yep. sweet life.

I am busy busy busy. better too busy than bored, i suppose. it is quite overwhelming at times, what with fashion show a bajillion times a week, leadership, cheerleading, and lots more.. I've also recently joined choir? Seemed like a fun idea, and I really enjoyed friday's practice. I especially enjoyed listening to "from paris to berlin" on repeat driving there... oh amy. We're singing "Think of Me" (every time i hear it i think of Nat) in the band concert on the 3rd.. should be fun.

haha. i sunburned yesterday. the middle of october. pathetic, i know. Off to study the evening away, happy thanksgiving everyone <33

wild horses-natasha beddingfield
pressure-lupe fiasco ft. jay-z
more love-dixie chicks
a home-dixie chicks
belief-gavin degraw
closer-joshua radin
dangerously in love-beyonce

everything is happening so fast.
i know its still only september, but it just seems like hours and weeks fly by like nothing. every moment there is a meeting to attend, an application to fill out or a class to run to. never a moment to just stop and breathe. i know before long it will be thanksgiving, then november will come, and in a blink of an eye it it will be christmas time. it all just hit me last night in the back room at ae, looking at all the clothes they're getting ready for christmas marked with "to/from" tags tied with red ribbons. it scares me how quickly time passes, though i do suppose its best to keep busy. ive been stressing/obsessing about universities lately. the only thing im certain of is what i want to do. it looks like im probably going to memorial, but i think id rather go to x, and part of me wants to just pack up and leave, off to ontario or alberta or anywhere far from here. lately bedford has felt so suffocating. why cant high school last forever.

tonight the ninjas reunited. it was odd.. not bad, just strange. i think it really all hit me when eric said 'i hate coming home. makes me not want to leave again'. Speaking of eric, he is without 3/4 of one eyebrow. apparently the boys up at X like to shave eyebrows off of passed out victims . what a sight. it was good to see that crazy kid again.

very very busy = very very tired. off to bed.
monday=underground cave full of bats. terrified.

..so i'll check the weather wherever you are cause i want to know if you can see the stars tonight..

so i thought summer was over.
i thought wrong.
apart from a serious lack of warm temperatures, the cosby show, and the ninjas...kay so not QUITE summer-ish.. but certainly not the overwhelming CPA schoolwork i remember.
i have a very easy semester, so endless summer commences now.
a-block drama, b-block leadership, c-block free, d-block math.
its a strange feeling, enjoying school. i mean. apart from falling over my own feet in the caf (THANKS JACK) its been pretty darn awesome.

ive had a chance recently to listen to most of john mayer's latest, continuum. i love this one most. its all so soft but.. heavier, vulnerable, bittersweet.. love love love <3

so stoked for mondays football game. i do not love football. i do love cpa. i do love painted faces, cheering like mad and crazy school spirit. thus, i love cpa football games. cant waaaaait. anyhow. off to go do the homework. guess its not QUITE just like summer...

this summer was an odd one. learned many things, had several new experiences, made my share of mistakes, had my share of fun. this time last year i was in a very different place. i was having a ball doing nothing at all with people id never once doubted, i was tanned (unlike the pasty white i am left with this summer, curse you american eagle), i was extremely naiive, close to stupid even. to truly believe in a life that is so uncertain that some things will be forever is unrealistic. time passes...time doesnt really mean anything. people change. this summer ive learned never to take anyone for granted, because you never know when they won't be there for you anymore.

anyhow.

on labor day the huge family was over for dinner. i took my place in the usual corner i hide in whilst the dozens of children run wild through the house. i made a myspace. definitely my new favorite thing, only mine is possibly the least my-spaciest of them all. whatevs. go see it :) myspace.com/laurendavid16. hoorayyy.

tonight is a school night. tomorrow brings the last "first day" of grade school, though i have no doubt in my mind the fajh will be at my first day of university taking pictures papparazzi style the way tim does best. anyhow i had best be off to go organize and savor what little summer i have left. have a wonderful first day back everyoneee :)

five days and we begin our last year of high school. crazy daisy. dont even want to think about the insanity that will be this year. regardless, it will be beautiful.. i know so.
since i last updated the ninjas and eric were almost killed, (kay maybe not killed. but i could have died of a heart attack. cheese and rice) my littole sister finally turned 15, and i had an interview with freak lunchbox. I highly doubt i got the job, which i suppose makes sense. i doubt im eccentric enough for their crazy little shop. i especially enjoyed such questions as "what is your favorite candy?" (red licorice), "do you enjoy milkshakes?" (who doesn't?), and "what is your favorite time of year?" (springtime, with all the birthdays including my own). all generic answers i suppose.
everything is unusual these days. AE is getting so much better though, i love all the new peopleee <3.. and working with kris is pretty sweet too :) even if we do have to share a nonexistant boyfriend. this week i work 46 hours. any more time spent in the mall and ill take up smoking, as it seems to be the thing to do if you work in the mall? ick.. ive slept about 4 hours per night all week, and have grown rather fond of vanilla double espresso lattes. i just woke up from a pleasant/accidental nap on the hardwood floor in the sitting room. nice lauren.

this evening i wander into my kitchen, expecting to have such snacking options as nectarines, organic granola, and peppermint tea. Instead, on the island before me sat more junk food than i had ever seen in my house, ever. was my usually sane and calm mother off her rocker?! i asked her what on earth all the candy was for, and plain as day she simply replied "its treat night"... this coming from the woman who has ruined many a halloween. silly sheils. dont even try and defend her shumona, just because she loves you more than me.

brick-ben folds five
redemption song-lauryn hill&ziggy marley
halo-haley james scott
never is a promise-fiona apple
i would die for you-jann arden
im yours-jason mraz
london rain-heather nova

"for the record..with you i never tried..i never forced..i never did things because i felt i had to...i did it because i cared" blahhhhh.